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Thursday, May 31, 2012
fifty first year....
Back in my childhood,old people I thought were born old.I never thought moms,dads,lolos and lolas were children like me,nor it never came to mind I would turn out just like them.Now it seems I am the way they were,as I looked at them when I was young.Stepping in their shoes seems natural though,but would I be even half the persons they were?Would I be as tender,as compassionate and as forgiving?Their love overwhelmed my being to this day,my strength through the years...my core.
Next week is my day again,one year deeper into my golden years,to wish for anything material is beyond me.God knows I never asked,instead everything I have came and all I did was to thank Him.The life I had wasn't really all roses,what mattered most...He was with me all the way,both joyful and otherwise...
Happiness should never be depended on,nor begged on anyone's "acceptance".Gone were the days of hurting and reducing in tears for any undesirable situation.Rather "acceptance" to life's challenges is more apt!At the end of the day,you'll look back and say..."It was worth fighting for and thank God I survived."You may even thank the people who somehow forced you to be the strong person that you are now.Life is real precious it's a pity wasting it,for whatever little time left you have in this wonderful world,to worthless pleasings!It may be a little late but,as the saying goes and I quote..."Better late than never"!
With all my heart and soul I raise my worship to You alone my Jesus,thank you for my being,thank you for my beloved family,thank you for my fifty one years with You beside me.
To You my God Jesus Christ Almighty...I commend myself once more...through my golden years and beyond.
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| my 51'st year birthday photo @ Taytay Falls,Majayjay,Laguna |
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| me @ 51 |
Monday, April 23, 2012
Doves,sunflowers & weddings...
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| go..fly high,find your love nest our darlings... |
Memories of long ago flashed before me..on a beach like this,I and my little boy were playing on the sand.His face was beaming with happiness jumping thru and fro,catching the waves..so unafraid and trusting his mama was there behind him,always ready to pick him up in case the waves would take him deeper.Suddenly I understood why he wanted so much to have a wedding by the beach,it is his most favorite place!But this time it wasn't me he needed by his side...the girl he asked from Jesus to spend the rest of his life with...his pretty Melissa,his wife in just a little while.
The wedding march started,Kid,Jj and I was in front,again mixed emotions flooded through me..I had to smile,show the people around me that I was okay..I didn't want Jj to see any tears from me!It was his most awaited day,my first born!His happiness was all I wish for,besides I didn't want my make up to smear all over.So just like a proud mama that I should be,I walked with him and my husband in the midst of all our guests to the altar.On both sides were men in white long sleeves,black vests and black pants carrying lighted torches to light our path.My eyes were fixed to the sunflower adorned altar just a few feet away..again memories kept flooding by..
Finally after the last participant of the entourage reached their allotted chairs,the long march ended.At the altar,we were made to stand in wait for the bride and her parents.As the french door from the resort's elevated hall opened,inside was the silhouette of Missy,radiantly clad in her off white wedding gown.Her face was covered with a transparent veil shadowing lightly her angelic face.In her hands was a bouquet of sunflowers and assorted wild flowers.I glanced at my Jj's expression as he was lovingly gazing at his bride walking slowly down the stairs..along the aisle towards him and us,I knew right at that very moment,his prayers were answered.I couldn't ask God for more!My Jj was fulfilled!The pastor's voice woke me up from my revery,asking the crowd who would give the bride to the groom...Softly but firmly,Melissa's papa answered.."I am."The pastor then commanded Jj that he could finally get his wife from her parents.The sight of my son kissing Missy's parents hands,a gesture full of respect made me the proudest mama on earth!God thank you for guiding us in rearing this wonderful man who is our son.
As he held Missy's hand and took her to us,kissing us too as our first born's chosen bride,my heart leaped with joy!This angelic bride is my most awaited baby girl!Truly God is amazing,all my unfathomable emotions gone!Bliss overwhelmed my heart and soul.So when the pastor asked us parents of the newly weds to free the doves and let them fly high to the sky,clearly it dawned on me...my son was already a married man.Free to fly and find their dream love nest.
And me?I will be more than content playing with my soon grandchildren at the beach again.Just like long ago with their daddy,my first born.
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| with my Jj...30 yrs ago... |
Friday, April 20, 2012
MOMMY
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| my mom,me and my son jj,mom's first grandchild |
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| mom in her youth |
i may not have hugged you as often as i could...
i may have made you cry a thousand times...
but in my heart you knew...
how much i love you so...
how much i depended on you so...
you were always there for me...
in my deepest darkest hour...
i was on your lap...caressing my hurt away...
kissing my fears away...
no matter what i do in my lifetime...
no matter how i try...
never will i repay the love and sacrifices...
you alone had given me...
and now that you're gone...
i wonder...
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| my gorgeous mom |
when will i see your loving face again?
and as i think of you my dearest mom...
i wish you could see me...
i wish you could hear me...
knowing that somehow...
i...your dreamrose...
is trying to tell the whole world...
in the simplest way i can...
to at least finally show you...
the gratefulness in my heart...
that you mommy...
is the most wonderful,selfless mom...
in the whole wide world.
happy birthday...
mommy.
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| my mom the teacher |
Monday, April 16, 2012
for my 1st born & his princess,on their special day...
My Jj you are our 1st born...I really can't still believe I'm looking at you now...as a married man,my tiny premature baby...
Remember....when you were trying to promise me...you're going to finish your studies....before taking a wife?What did I tell you?"Baba,please don't promise me..just deliver.But you argued with me,you said...."Mama I want to promise,I need to promise!It's not for you!It's for me so that I have something to hold on to!....But all I said was...."Just deliver....I didn't need your promises then...I didn't want to expect too much."
But true to your word,you did fulfill your promise! To top it all....you delivered on time.You made us real proud!
Once again,today, I'm asking you not to promise Missy....but to deliver....for the rest of your lives.
Don't break her heart...by unfulfilled promises...just deliver.
Missy..you are my most awaited baby girl..God chose you for us..
I hope....a lot of little girls are on their way soon.
The little boys...I'll willingly share them with Madi...
But the little girls...they will be my dolls!
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Answered Prayer...
Marionne Manila-Cristobal was tagged in ~Quotes for Everyday Life ~'s photo.
A Chat with Jesus Christ Jesus: Hello. Did you call me? Man: Called you? No. Who is this? Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat. Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something. Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too. Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time. Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it. Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat. Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with. Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now? Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated. Man: why are we then constantly unhappy? Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy. Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty? Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional. Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer? Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter. Man: You mean to say such experience is useful? Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards. Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems? Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems. Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading. Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight. Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do? Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock. Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated? Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing. Man: What surprises you about people? Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth. Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer. Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation. Man: How can I get the best out of life? Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered. Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO. Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration. Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live. Man: Thank you so much. Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
COLOUR...
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| (grabbed from the net) |
Simply expressed with great eloquence,children do not use metaphors like adults.Directly they say what they see and feel without angst of any kind.But the moment they speak we know its a fact.
Some said this was not written by a child,who knows...but children as young as they are already become victims of racial discrimination from playmates.For the young imitate their olds,both good and bad traits.
Discrimination is universal,the range is vast,from physical,life style,religious beliefs to educational attainment and more.
If this poem was written by an adult..then he copied it from a babe's innocent words.For we adults learn more from them than they from us.An education most uncomplicated.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
April wish...
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| my JJ & Missy |
O rain please end outright..
Make a way for son's delight.
Come April day give light..
I pray to make it bright!
His faith so strong...
Since he was small.
So please don't fail him now.
To God he'll make a vow.
I ask you this once more..
Bless his day with care.
To make his vows of love..
On a blissful sunny day!
Grant me please this April wish..
A gift I ask for my son at least.
Let sun come out for him to wed...
Amidst sunflowers on a beach.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
hush...
Keep mum...watch silently from afar...
Sight's blurred by crystal drops...
Like an uninvited soul in the dark.
Soothing voice less desired...
By yesterday's young.
Bleeding heart so hard to hide..
But try you must for them to ripe.
Your life is gone as theirs is first...
As pure as gold...you wish them joy.
Your love will stay...unseen,unheard.
"Oh blowing wind I beg..
Whisper my love for them...
Hug them tight as they've loved before...
Sing them my song to let them know..
How I miss them so".
Monday, March 19, 2012
written by my dear friend tess..
Tinigsik ko ining si dreamrose
Sa ngaran pa sana
Ika mapapahapot
Ano sya Aki pa at cute?
Ang simbag ko saimo
Bako sana siya cute
Kundi siya pati maboot.
Kung siya saimong mahihiling
Masabi ka suplada ang beauty Niya
Korek ka
Pero Kung siya saimong
Mamidbidan haayyyyyyy
Mabooton palan.
Dakulon siyang naaaraman
Lalo na sa kaartehan
Simpleng tawo o may sinasabi man
Kaya niyang atubangon asin pakisamahan
Minsan dakulon kaming kadangagan
Ta siya minsan Mali Mali man
Sa buruahan o sa turultulan
Siya saimong maaasahan.
Iyan si dreamrose
Na sakuyang kaibigan.
AMEN!
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